Hate What I've Become

my skin is tan, my teeth are white
my belly's full, my jaw is tight
been resting on my laurels for so long
they've taken root and grown thorns

sometimes I hate what I've become
so liked and loved by everyone
so many paths there were to take
and I've become the things I hate

I've worked so hard for all this stuff
I got way too much
and it's still not enough
I praise God from Whom all blessings flow
or do I bow a bit too low?

sometimes I hate what I've become
so liked and loved by everyone
so many paths there were to take
and I've become the things I hate

I miss the piercing of the stars
I miss the fierceness in my heart
I won't pretend I've got it right
and I won't go down without a fight

sometimes I hate what I've become
so liked and loved by everyone
put one more candle on my cake
for another year gone up in flames
another year gone up in flames
another year gone up in flames
another year gone up in flames…